Mina called from her dad’s today to talk about monsters. It seems that after 2 years, they have decided to come in and take up residence by her bedroom door at night.
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Life Lessons for my Little
Learning how to say how you feel and explain it in a way others can understand is hard. It is a lesson Mina is learning this week. Her dad is coming back soon after about 5 weeks in Turkey and the proposed visitation schedule is not what Mina had anticipated.
http://www.mostlyhappyjourney.com/2014/11/life-lessons-little/
Invisible
As a Single Mom, I record Mina’s life in pictures and videos. When I look back through the years of pictures, I notice that there are few candid pictures which include me. I am that silent presence taking pictures, but there isn’t someone there to capture those mother/daughter moments that so many other moms seem to have.
A New Scary
Mina and I knew this day would come for a couple of months now, but it was an abstract concept with no date attached to it. Somehow that seemed to render it not so real…yet. The date is set. Friday, Mina’s dad begins his sabbatical in Turkey for the next few months and life shifts again.
Thank you
I have always been a grateful girl, but I have made a conscious effort to be more vocal about it by saying thank you more often. I think it began during and after my divorce when people began to reach out and help me not because they had to but because they wanted to. I wasn’t used to being helped. I had become used to doing everything myself with a big smile on my face just so no one knew I might be struggling. I had learned not to ask for help because it would not be readily forthcoming and usually filled with resentment.
Moon Magic
Last week was the last full moon of summer and we decided to celebrate it. It has become a tradition for Mina and me to make these nights magical. She likes to capture moon beams in her crystals by setting them outside over night. We also take the time to make wishes, write our gratitudes and set intentions for the coming months.
Stuck in a groove
Lately, Mina has been listening to music in her room and it reminded me of when I was young listening to my records. If I wasn’t careful, then my records would get scratched and the song would get stuck in a groove. I would get so frustrated that I had to physically get up, walk over, lift and re-adjust the needle. It hit me this week that is like a metaphor for life.
Saying No to others and Yes to yourself
I once was a “Yes-girl”. You ask me to do something for you and I would turn myself into a pretzel to make that happen. I would turn my life inside out and upside down to make yours easier.
Then, I wondered why I was miserable, tired and unhappy.
The Multi-Dimensional Heart
I know, I know…it may come as a big surprise for many of you, but I have been told lately that I care about people too much, that I could get really hurt, and that there isn’t enough love to go around for everyone…So “How come I open my heart so wide and let everyone in” is the question I have been asked a few times over the past few months.
http://www.mostlyhappyjourney.com/2014/08/multi-dimensional-heart/
I can’t…& it’s ok.
I have a lot of pride sometimes and that can make me very stubborn. You tell me that I can’t and I will dig my feet in to prove you wrong. Rather than tell you that I can’t, I will hide away and avoid the subject all together.
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